November 19, 2011 @ 11:19 AM
No matter how hard I try, I'm still not good enough. I don't know what else to do anymore. What do you want from me? I don't know how much longer I could stand. How much longer do I need to wait? I wish you could truly understand how I feel now. I wish you could feel the pain I'm feeling now. I know it's a waste of time. At times, I feel like giving up but you always have a way to pull me back in again. I hate myself for loving you. Loving you is a mistake. A terrible mistake. You are my worst nightmare ever.
I hate you but I love you more.