July 21, 2012 @ 3:36 AM
While I was doing my usual scrolling on fb home page, I suddenly decided to edit my education info; you know, now that I'm starting uni all over again -.-' , I just thought that I should update my fb friends a little about where I'm going to for uni. I know nobody cares but whatever. That is why they have the education info tab for, no? Checked for other infos to see if there is anything I wish to add/ change. When I came across contact info, I saw my blog link and it reminds me of this super dead blog. So I decided to drop by. Read back the two posts and then it hits me that I was suppose to start a new life here and blog about it. That is the whole reason why I deleted the older posts. -.- But being the usual forgetful me, I obviously forgotten about it totally. -.-' So I thought I should just update for the sake of the promise I made to myself and also because I really don't have other better things to do now. haha. so why not?
So.... ahh same boring question - where should I begin? =.=
Since I was talking about uni earlier on, I think I should just update about uni. Uni uni uni... boring, I know. Every boring blogger students always update about uni most the time. Because that is what we boring blogger students ever do! Unless you're one of those rich/popular student that has adventurous life. Sadly, I'm not one of those. My life is boring as hell! The last thing you'd ever want is to live life like mine. Need to stop ranting about my life because it's a never ending topic. Move on to happier things...
I am starting uni on monday! yay! :D
Okay, that was so not me... Anyone who knows me would definitely know its a nay for me when it comes to uni. I don't attend classes, I don't do work, I do my assignments a day before it dues, and the worse thing I have ever done in uni was skipping final exam. Dafuq?! Why? I got the same respond from almost everyone. It was due to personal issues. I was so out of my mind. What was I thinking back then? I have no freaking idea. This is one of the main reason why I was sent to Melbourne. Its a punishment from my parents! More like torture... :( Did I mention that I'm starting uni all over again? oh I did. There you have your answer why!
I actually find coming to Melbourne to be a great start for me. I have to admit that I have somehow changed. I'm more independent now and I finally found my aim in life. I have a dream I want to chase after. I find my life less meaningless. Every time people ask me this question, I was not able to give a good answer. It's more like a bullshit answer that I always give. And it annoys me every time people ask. I would be thinking ' don't you have a better question to start our conversation?' And this question is...Where would you see yourself in 5 years time? I really don't know. I wasn't thinking so far forward. And I always try to figure out the right answer for myself, the answer I am happy with. I finally found the answer. But there are some obstacles now. I hope everything will turn out fine then I will be one step closer to my dream. As much as I would like to announce what the answer is, I can't. I don't need any judgemental comments at the moment. I'm just keeping my fingers crossed and praying for the best outcome. When I told a friend about this dream of mine, he told me to do what I think is best for me. And never give up even if it kills me. I am one who easily gives up and this attitude of mine is not going to get me anywhere near my dream. Thus, I have made a promised to myself that if everything goes well, I would ditch all my bad attitudes and habits and everything that comes in my way. I would do whatever it takes to prove people wrong. Action speaks louder than words. So I shouldn't be talking much. Should do something about it instead of hoping and praying for things to go my way.
So let's move on to... another boring topic..
Life in Melbourne is really boring for me. I don't have much friends here. Maybe just one or two that I would actually hang out with. So most of the time I'll be at home doing what I do best, sleeping! haha. Hopefully things will get better when I start uni. I need to learn to socialize. I am freaking bad at it. There are so much to learn here. It's exciting yet scary. Exciting because I'm about to experience a whole new different stage of life. Scary because I'm not sure if I could adapt to it or even fit in. Being left behind and unable to fit in is the worse experience you can ever get in uni! Uni should be fun and adventurous. I hope mine would turn out to be one. I also need to get a job! I cannot just go to uni 3 days a week and do nothing for the remaining 4 days. Hang out with friends? What if I don't have any? *touch wood* haha. I mean I cannot always ask my friends to make time for me. Maybe they have other better things to do. Why do I always make my life sound so sad...-.- It's not that sad actually. I exaggerated. I need extra money for shopping and also for pressies for my loved ones. I want the best for them. Maybe not the best but good enough for my budget :) or maybe pamper myself to a short vacation with the boy to somewhere I could afford with that kind of money. I cannot always expect him to pay for everything. It's more like pampering him but it makes me happy when he's happy. So pampering him is like pampering myself as well. I'm such a good girlfriend. You're one lucky bastard, Simon Yap! :DD
Woah, this was suppose to be a simple update on what's happening in my life recently but it has clearly turned into a long ass post. haha. I feel kinda relieved after spilling here. I think I'll be returning more often. Only if my teeny weeny brain remembers. haha.
As usual, how can a female blogger post a blog post without uploading pictures, right? So to complete my post...
This is not like the usual pose I would do. But I love the outcome. All thanks to camera360 for the fantastic effects! I'm a sucker for app with nice effects because I don't know anything about photoshop! So angles and nice effects should do the job.
Till then..