Hello again.
December 29, 2017 @ 12:50 AM
After all these years, I'm back here again. I cringed a little reading back my previous posts lol. I wish I hadn't removed all my previous posts from day 1 of blogging. It'd be fun to read and those ones will probably be even more cringe worthy lol. Looking back, I realised I've come this far. TBH, I miss my young self. How motivated I was to turn over a new leaf after ditching my crazy lifestyle. I made promises to myself to be a better person and have a better life. Am I owning up to my words? I don't know. I'm not in a bad place but I could have been in a better one. I have lost all passion in what I believed in and what I want to achieve. Procrastination and denial are killing me slowly. I know I can do it but I need to pick myself up again and I don't know where to start. Should I still hang on to this? I have been doubting but on the other hand, I feel like I'm only making excuses for myself because I have lost passion in what I'm doing. A part of me want to stay on and try to achieve something I have always set myself to, but another part of me is telling me I do not have much time to waste. Sandwiched in between the devil and angel in me. Everyday I wake up thinking to myself, what should I do today to make a change? It always ended up as purely thoughts and no action. I'm all over the place right now. I know I can create something beautiful for myself but first of all, I need to get myself out of this current state I'm in. It's slowly draining every bit of positive energy in me. I don't want to give up just yet because I know I can and I will. Hang on and make yourself proud